172.6 good enough!

so I lost 1.2 lbs for my second week. Surprisingly enough...I'm not disappointed by that number. A loss is a loss. I could be gaining 1.2 lbs but no....I lost 1.2 lbs. On to week three!

starting weight: 180
Week one: 173.8 -6.2
Week two: 172.6 -1.2
Total lost: -7.4

weigh in #1

i'm down 6.2 lbs. Now that feels nice to say! i may actually be able to do this program and stick with it. I don't feel like I've been dieting at all. So strange. I encourage anyone having trouble losing weight to give weight watchers a shot. I'm hoping for a two pound loss next week but i'll try and be happy with any loss i can get.

starting weight: 180
Week one: 173.8 -6.2

weight watchers on 10/08/2009

So I finally decided I can't do it alone. on 10/08/2009 I officially joined weight watchers. I paid for two months so I better use it right? I am amazed at how easy it is for me to track everything. It's what I was dreading but so far so good. I replaced everything in my cupboards and fridge with fat free or light. Maybe the taste will become second nature, and maybe not! I put a cute little fruit bowl on the counter with oranges, apples, and bananas. Yesterday my sister ordered chinese food and ate right in front of me. I got out my apple, and my orange and ate them both so that I wouldn't have that hungry feeling while sitting there watching her eat. Man it looked good. But i was good. my weigh in with WW is this Thursday. They weighed me in at 180.2. I had heavy clothes on but still MAN :( I was sad.

Kelcy is finally done teething which marks the end of her babydom. She's two now. She is completely potty trained. She talks in sentences where did my baby go? She's been replaced by a two year old monster/heathen/barbarian/angel. She's still my life and probably always will be.

letter to myself

Please don't do this. Don't self destruct. Please give yourself (me) a chance. Why do you eat when you're not hungry? What is your fucking deal? why do you eat out when you know you can eat at home? why do you eat past that full feeling? Don't you care about me at all? If you did you wouldn't do this! Please try harder. Don't let that boy make you feel insignificant and unworthy. You are important regardless of how he feels about you. Is it the number on the scale that sets you on this path? It always seems to be that number that makes you start eating crappy again. Please work on this and get back to me....thanks.

177.....yeay

well it's slow progress but it's progress! I stopped dieting for a while, stopped taking xenadrine and realized something....I didn't feel like over eating. I don't know what has changed all I know is that i'm content not over eating. I'm back on the whole eating just good stuff gig and will see how I do but I am excited I went a whole week without being controlled by food. Now that is something!