Weight 180 Pounds Left 60

So it's been two weeks since I posted. I have been out of town and really haven't been proud of myself. I drank alcohol twice so I feel like I majorely fell off the bandwagon. I guess if I put it into perspective it's really not all that bad. I only had about two servings of alcohol the first time and one serving the second time. I still managed to lose weight this last two weeks. Four pounds is still an accomplishment. I am finally down to 180...I can't wait to hit the 70's....time goes by whether or not I am losing weight so I might as well spend it taking off the extra pounds...It's been two months and I've lost 19 lbs, that's a big accomplishment really. I know I mostly speak of weight issues on here...but I feel like sharing...I met a new guy and he's completely different than the usual undesirables I usually date. The thing is that he is in the Air Force so I will only get to see him when he is on leave. It figures you find something so incredible and you can't just enjoy it...you have to wait it out and see if it actually works for you.



SW: 199
CW:180
GW1:160
GW2:120

Weight 184 Pounds Left 64

woohoo so I lost some weight this week. It wasn't a lot but it was enough to keep me on track and not get bummed out. Three pounds is good especially for this week. So I'm not giving up and we will see how much weight I can lose doing this healthy. My goal weight is 120 but it has been pointed out to me that that may be too small for my body height. I am very small boned so I don't think it will be but if it is I will not take it that far. This isn't about being super small. So if I am healthy at 130 I'll stay there and just maintain. If I am healthy at 140 I will grin and bear it. This is a real life changing experience for me. I'm loving it really. I'm so excited to hopefully soon be in the 170's. That's almost prepregnancy weight but not quite. I'm going to put up some pictures here pretty soon. Fifteen pounds lost....That's awesome!



SW: 199
CW:184
GW1:160
GW2:120

Weight 187 Pounds left 67

So I have lost more weight! I am excited. I feel like life is good and I am going to be able to do this. I cheated tonight. I went out to a diner with my family and ordered meatloaf. That meatloaf was cold and salty so I took it back and got chicken strips instead. I only ate 3 but I still feel so guilty. I broke the diet on purpose though. I wanted to prove to myself that I can have a bad meal and not toss the whole diet. I feel guilty but know that for me this test was a necessary one...so I lost 5 lbs this week who hoo! That's awesome. I am hoping for another 5 but lets see if that happens. I refuse to be upset if it doesn't


SW:199
CW:187
GW1:160
GW2:120

doing well

I was a little bummed last week because I didn't feel like I was losing weight. This week I feel like I was probably wrong. Things just fit better. I'll post my weight on Thursday and let everyone know. I'm eating 6 small meals a day in hopes that that is good enough to rev up the metabolism. A new class of mine has started so I'm trying to balance 17 units with this whole getting fit routine. So far it's not going so great. I need to devote more time to my studies. Oh well.

Weight 192 Pounds left 72

Well I have only lost two pounds this week. Thats not what I was hoping for! I am just going to keep doing what I'm doing and hope it shows me more weight loss next week. This wasn't supposed to be a quick fix anyway. I'm thinking about adding running to my work out regimen. It would be so good for me! It's hard to find a babysitter though. Maybe Ill start running when she's napping since her grandpa is always home. Curves is now just another part of my routine. Every weekday I go and I workout for 45 minutes to an hour. It feels so good! I'm feeling more tone now. I am still eating healthy but I think I am going to follow Curve's advice and stick with 1200 calories a day. Even though it was only two pounds I am still proud of myself.


SW: 199
CW:192
GW1:160
GW2:120

I will do this

I have been thinking, why did I do this to myself? What made me overeat so much? I thought back and I realized I was 11 when I got put in foster care. I never felt fat before then. Suddenly I hated myself and didn't care anymore. Thinking about it now I think maybe I blamed myself for everything...I know I blamed myself for everything. I need to get over this in order to like myself again. It wasn't my fault my mother left. I have to keep telling myself that. I remember being 11 and weighing 128 lbs and thinking I would just die if I gained another pound. But of course i kept eating. I think It was then that I developed a horrible self image and at the same time it was then that I sabbotaged myself. It's important to realize what makes me this way but it's so hard to face.

On a different note... I believe I am still losing weight but I won't know until thursday's weigh in with Curves. Even if I didn't lose weight this week I have decided not to change a thing because it's no longer just about the weight, it's about loving myself enough to eat right, exercise and enjoy the energy it brings me. Yesterday Curves was closed so I just bought a work out video and worked out at home. It was kind of embarrassing as my whole family watched me shake my booty to the beat :) Mother tells me she notices a big difference in me already. I haven't had anyone else notice though and that's ok...its a small weight loss right now so I'll just count my blessings and be happy with what I have. I have these "Skinny jeans" that I have and I can't wait to fit back into them. They are a size 7. That will be the day! One day at a time though. It's not just that I can do this, it's that I will do this.

Weight 194 Pounds left 74

It has been a few days and let me tell you I feel great. I have only missed one day of exercise in the past 8 days. I can feel muscles being created. I have more energy, I'm happier with myself, I don't crave the fatty stuff as much anymore. Curves is awesome. The ladies really show me respect and are like friends really. I go in there I do my 45-60 minute workout and it feels like It's just social hour. Everyone is so sweet. I am now down 5 lbs already making my new weight 194 lbs. This is exciting. I have a wedding to go to in May (two of them actually) I want to look good all dressed up. I think I'm losing inches but I don't want to jinx myself. I am trying my hardest not to over constrict. Making your lifestyle change too restrictive just makes it easier to fail. I am trying to keep the calories up to 1200 and below 1500. I am experiencing boredom with my food choices so I'm going to be looking up some new recipes here soon. I am starting to love myself again. It's a great feeling.

Height: 5'5"
SW: 199
CW: 194
GW1: 160
GW2: 120